…I´m finding myself in a deep dark hole of nothing. I hate the school, my main teacher sucks, in the beginning I thought “oh wooow my beloved Finnish, I will learn this amazing language” - but in this time, I have to learn Eesti as well and so many other objects I don´t like, and I don´t have the time to learn the Finnish. But that can be ok - but…my parents think that university is the most important thing in my life, and I can´t live without it. You have to, you have to!
I hate this. I don´t want this.
I´m on the way to leave the university and start my life - I can go to work anywhere, start my life with independence…
But I still have the feeling of “I´m such a bad daughter”…but - when it will end, the instructions from my parents?
I love them so much, but also I think that it´s more that necessary to be independent and making my own decisions……………..